I was constantly staring at my watch from 3.50pm, expecting the bell to ring. As soon as the bell rang, i ran to the parking lot with a chunky bag on my shoulders.I unlocked my intimate bicycle and rode as fast as i could.I even overtook some uncles riding their old scooters. The moment i entered the home, i switched on the tv without even removing my stinky socks, to watch SWAT KATS(my favourite cartoon).At the age of 12, i wouldnt mind watching cartoon network for 24*7, if i was allowed.
Just when the program was about to start, my biggest foe snatched the remote from me.I think at that age, the biggest and the only foe to me was my elder brother.He changed the channel to some bloody cricket match( he wouldnt mind watching cricket matches for 24*7,if allowed). I was continuously badgering him to change the channel. Sachin got out. As though Sachin got out due to my annoyance, my foe gave me a hefty knock on my head.
Tears took their stand and were ready to fall on my cheeks.I was not the kind of kid who would complain to their mom.I tried to retaliate but ended up with getting even a heavier knock.
This was just 1 in 10 incidents a day, where i would be beaten by him.In all these times i would say to myself " Dont cry like a girl, you moron!!! One day, when you grow as taller and stronger as him,you will surely knock him on his head,atleast once. now stop crying" Before finishing that self-talk, my tears would have already wet my cheeks.
I thought, born as a younger brother was the worst possible way, the god can curse you with. Because you would get knocked on your head if you watched cartoon, if you didnt bat well in a gully cricket match( even if your foe was in the opponent team), if you didnt go to shop( even if it was his turn to go to shop) and above all you would always be a SECOND-HANDER. His cycle, his apparels and his books would be passed on to you.
After some few months, i heard the most
happiest news in my life. My foe had to go to chennai for doing his engineering( Till he completed his board exams,i even had to sacrifice my cartoon programs).Then i felt like a slave who got his freedom after so many years.For the first few days after he left, i was happy.There was no one to control me. But as days passed, i could feel something was missing.As days became months, i realized that MISSING THING was my foe.
I wanted to fight with him for all the silly reasons
I wanted to play with him and lose to him
I wanted to defy him
I wanted to get knocked on my head for that
I wanted to cry for that
Now,I am crying not because he hit me
It is because he is not near me to hit
(OMG did i write i poem????) After some few months, he came home for holidays.I really didnt know how to react. Should i fight with him for switching on the lights when i was sleeping or should i hug him and say " I MISS U". Though my heart wanted to do the latter, something made me to do the former. Because i am from a family where words like "SORRY, THANK U, MISS U etc " are not spoken my mouth.They had to be understood. I surely knew that my foe,sorry MY BROTHER would have heard the words spoken by my heart.
One thing i understand now is that " THE MORE YOU HATE YOUR SIBLING IN YOUR CHILDHOOD, THE MORE YOU LOVE THEM IN YOUR LATER YEARS".I am not sure whether any of my friends got such an adorable and sweet brother as i got.I now realize that God didnt curse me. He blessed me with such an exceptional brother.
by prem
Here i am going to post a fiction. The reason why i chose to write a fiction is that atleast here i can fulfill my long lasting desire of kissing a girl which would never happen unless. But dont forget that most of the FICTIONS ARE INSPIRED FROM TRUE STORIES.
It had been nearly 20months since i joined the college. I myself can sense a lot of changes within me in the past 20months.I kind of changed from a boy who used to be so careful and conscious about his life to a lad who is lethargic, under performer yet confident about his life. But one thing that never changed was the girl i had been looking from the first day of my college.Still i am not sure whether the feeling i have for her is due to infatuation or love or lust( so let me call it as THAT FEELING).
The reason for THAT FEELING on her was because she was the only girl in class who was "MY-KIND-OF-GIRL". my-kind-of-girl means she has to be conservative, averagely brilliant,slim and most importantly beautiful.Not only she but the whole class including some professors knew that i had THAT FEELING on her.Because i used to constantly stare( to be candid, ogle) at her.A 100 times i had been caught ogling at her, but i couldnt infer anything from her facial expressions. I think GIRLS ARE THE MOST ENIGMATIC THING IN THE WORLD.
It was my 20th birthday.Got lot of wishes and lotsss of birthday bums.In the evening ,an unknow number flashed in my mobile.The most imaginative part of my brain guessed it to be her. And you know what, it was her. Her voice was confident,cheerful and filled with enthusiasm.That was so ironical.For a second i thought it had to be some prank call from my friends but fortunately it was not.
It seemed to me that her words had an essence of THAT FEELING.After few minutes, she asked saucily "what gift do you want for this very special birthday?". I replied stammeringly " a movieeee withh u???".With out giving much of thought she accepted.Surely she is not conservative atleast not as conservative as i had expected.
I dressed neatly, borrowed my friend's bike and went to the rendezvous.She made sure that the rendezvous was a no-man-area.For a moment i was awestruck looking at her beauty. At that moment i felt THAT FEELING was purely lust.She got in the bike and managed to sit without touching me. But thanks to the chennai traffic and the strong disc brakes.
We entered the cinema hall.After some 20min i couldnt resist myself .I held her hand and our 10fingers locked each other.There was a shy smile in her lips.I rested my head on her shoulder.Still no protest.Something in my body was hugely raising( it was my heart beat).I moved my lips so close to her face that only a layer of air was between us.She then pushed me and gave me an abash look as though i was about to make her pregnant.That look made me realize that i had crossed the limit.
Till the end of movie,her face was filled with hostility.I feared that this would be my first and last date with her.The movie was over and we reached that no-man-area to drop her.She was standing beside me.I made up my mind to apologize her.A nanosecond before words came out of my vocal cord,she pressed her lips deep in my cheek. My first kiss lasted for nearly 30 seconds and then she ran away with tons and tons of shyness.
Still i could not figure out what was running on her mind.As i said GIRLS ARE THE MOST ENIGMATIC THING IN THE WORLD.
by prem
Here i am going to post a true love story.As you might have guessed ,its not mine. This is the first time i am getting into someone's shoes and posting a blog. so please bear with me,as you have been doing with my previous blogs.Here the story starts....
Me and my friend were new to the school.We were in 11th grade.We hugely missed our amiable friends gang.The vicinity was so new to us and everyone looked strange.The only thing that gave us some consolation was the GOOD LOOKING girls in that school( this was also one of the MAIN reason why we shifted to that school).As usual me and my friend occupied the last bench.
Exactly two benches infront of us,sat a girl who looked to me as the cutest among many cute girls in the class.As i turned towards my friend to say about the girl, he was giving such a lecherous look that seemed like he would have raped her just by looking.He too felt that she was the best in the class.Wise men think alike.I felt, unless and until a miracle occurs that girl would never ever talk to me.
I was a good cricketer in my school days.coincidentally, she was a great cricket freak( COINCIDENTS ARE SO COMMON IN TRUE LOVE STORIES).Once in a school match,our team was suffering a lot and victory was unthinkable.I got into the field, played a belligerent knock and took my team to victory.A huge crowd of students saw the match and fortunately she was one among them.
Next day in the class,she congratulated me saying "hey u played sooo well da" I was flabbergasted and did not know how to react.I blushed, showed all my front row teeth and ran away.In next few weeks we acquainted well and even started texting. Each morning i would be so excited to go to school as i could see her and even talk a few words with her.I thought these symptoms were enough for me to believe that i was in LOVE.
After mustering some courage i thought to propose her.I took my mobile and reached her name in contacts.My mobile rang.It was she who was calling me. Another coincidence.After a few minutes of formal conversation, her tone changed and said " hey, i wanted to say something important to you. I thought of saying this a lot of time but some how i could not. please dont think me as a cheap girl and even if you dont like what i am going to say , we shall as usual remain friends then on."
I knew where she was getting at. I even started dancing duet with her in my mind before she completed her hesitant proposal. she then continued " yes I AM IN LOVE. I LOVE YOUR FRIEND SO DEEPLY. please hel-------------------
P.S: His friend accepted her love and went on to lead a perfect teenage lover life.
by prem
