A city within a campus

             I was travelling at 90kmph in my friend's R15. In the backseat was my charming girlfriend.We were heading to mahapalipuram. On the way we parked the bike in a calm and lonely beach.Excluding us there were no other humans.The climate and situation induced some hormones within me.I put my hand around her shoulder and pulled her closer to me.My lips were only few millimetres away from her cheek.



                                  TRING.....TRING.....TRING.......Everything was blank.I was lying in my room.My moblie was screaming and i regained my senses. That was one damn good dream.There is an adage that day dream comes true.It was my friend who called me.These friends will never allow you to kiss a girl even in your dreams.He called me to inform that he was selected for a cultural event in IIT-M.At first i was reluctant to move my body from bed but due to his persistence i decided to go.He warned me to dress neatly and trendy, knowing my bad sense of dressing.




                                I searched my entire wardrobe but couldnt find any attire that suited for the event. IIT even had standards for dressing that i couldnt match.Thanks for my friend from whom i borrowed a branded t-shirt and shoes.After passing through the famous chennai traffic i reached IIT.The institute which have been portrayed to us as the gateway for attaining MOKSHAM, the institute where only the brighter of the brightest minds get admission and for guys like me entering that institute even as an audience was quite an achievement.



                                   
                                        So far in my life i have seen only colleges within a city but there it was other way round.It was said that IIT-M was widespread across600acres.Nearly 10times larger than my college.Students there were 20times smarter than my collegemates(both intellectually and physically).At times god is so careless in his work that he blesses a few with both brain and beauty, curses many with neither of the both.



                                     The ambience there was something i have never experienced in my life before. I dont know whether i was two generations back or those students were two generations ahead.I was just scanning every student from top to bottom with my mouth wideopen. I do not know why i did that.Girls wearing chudidhar seemed very odd because girls there wore shorts or skirts that never crossed their knee and wore t-shirt that had no sleeves.





                                                    Like this there were 1000 other reasons to be envy on IIT students but one thing that never crosses our mind is the dedication and commitment they had shown to enter this prestigeous institute. I do not believe in the phrase " GENIUS BY BIRTH"  but the ratio of dedication shown by IITians and guys like me will surely be more than 100000:1. At the end of the day


                                          EVERYONE GETS WHAT THEY DESERVE

                                                                                                                                                
                                                                                        by  prem

power of an arrear

               

                                           " THERE IS NO CAREER WITHOUT AN ARREAR."  I worked very hard to prove this quote as though it was said by Aristotle. Atlast i achieved it.I have an arrear in my 5th semester.I wonder how i escaped the first 4 semesters.Obviously a long time thief will once be caught.




                                                  I dont know from when i started feeling blogging as my solace.Here i am trying to write down the feelings i underwent when i saw the results. Our results came after a long wait as if a THALAIVAR movie. If you are a student who is distressed of being a 8pointer or a student who is happy clearing atleast 3 papers per semester, you may not understand my feelings.




                                                     The most embarrasing moment in one's life would be to inform your mom(who has always seen you as a topper) that you have failed in a exam. I rehearsed 100 times before informing my mom but i blurted out in the worst possible way i could.Surely a tranformer must have blasted inside her on hearing this but her tone was calm,steady and even encouraging.I think mothers might have attached some kind of microchip in our heart when we are born that they react exactly as our heart wanted them to.






                                                     But the most encouraging thing is not words from mom,dad or brother but when your friend has the same number of arrears as you.Then your sorrow of ocean will be reduced to swimming pool.Mine was reduced to baby swimming pool as many of my friends has an arrear.My college ro(su)ckz.




                                            The first thing our heart would say to the arrear friends is "NANBEN DA".Though we may console him by words like " machi, we shall clear in revaluation da cool!!!!!!"  we would secretly be praying " Dear god, if i dont clear, pleaseee make sure that my arrear friends also doesnt clear the paper."  how true we are to our friends???




                                               My mind was obsessed with one serious question from the time i saw my results  " AM I TALENTED ENOUGH TO FULFILL MY PARENTS EXPECTATIONS ON ME???" The question has never crossed my mind in all these years. YES, this is the power of an arrear,it can shatter your 20-years old self confidence.




                                                                               by prem
                                                                                                                                                                     

Am i friendly?

                                             
                                      
                                          Play station,movies,books and friends. The one thing that is common among the four is that they are good time-passes. Yes, this is how i have been seeing my so called close friends. Then think the way i would have treated my not-so-close friends. 




                                               The reason why i felt like writing about friends was that i was taunted by my friends. Though taunting is such a common incident that we even take turns in targeting someone among our friends,but this time i sensed something unusual. My buddies face seemed to say YOU-F****R-THIS-IS-TIME-FOR-REVENGE. I dont know whether i have treated them so badly or are they so bad. I guess Newton would have experienced the same because of which he would have written his 3rd law.






                                           The one question that have been haunting me for years is ' do i have a close friend?'.Afraid of answering NO to the question , i have skipped it all these years in my mind.Atleast now i got the courage to answer the question.Ofcourse the answer is a big NO.If i had any, i would not be writing this blog.I would have shared my feelings with him.But some poor guys do not even know that  they do not have close friends. Do you want to check ? then try answering these questions




                                              1) Have you ever said about your family problems(if you have any) to your close friend?       
                                                   


                                              2)Have you ever discussed about your true love with that friend?


                                               3)Have you ever sincerely advised him when you know that he is leading a  wrong path?
  


                                                 4)Have you ever spent money for him without any HESITATION?     
                                                 


                                               5)Atleast have you ever felt " this is the guy who would walk along with me in all my difficult situations?"




                                     If the answer is YES, then it is well and good. If it is NO, then you have just joined the club of self-centered people in which i am a prominent member.Its time for our club members to introspect because there is surely a problem with our attitude.I am damn jealous on my father and brother who have handful of ACTUAL close friends.How could i, having the same genes as them did not inherit all their good characters?  May be this attitude problem is the problem of my generation.




                                         Anyway it is high time that we expunge the concept ' friends are just meant to accompany us for the movies, boost our new year eve enjoyment , gives company when we tease someone etc etc. They are really worth a LOT LOT more than that.






                                                                                      by prem